We now return to our regular broadcast?

Three years. Wow. I guess I've been a little busy since I last posted. Bahahaha. I guess I've been a lot busy, but it's more like neglectful. Facebook pretty much has overtaken (taken over?) my creative outlet so I think it's time to get back to the basics of what I love best. (Love, not do) Writing & photography. Now that I'm retired with tons of free time on my hands (yeah right) I need to MAKE time for me. Doing what I am passionate about and not worrying about cleaning, rearranging and perfecting the house. It's too big. It's too old (as I am) and too painful for me to even try. Having the Roomba helps but it can't vacuum every surface and being away 5 months over the winter (as blessed as I am to be able to do so) I'm not blessed with a housekeeper in the interm let alone when I return. I won't be disappointed if Italy doesn't happen this Winter. It would be nice to take my good camera and blog about the travels, sights and towns. Until then, I need some me time to get me figured out.

I'm very frustrated. I should have had back surgery years ago but opted out (the pain was manageable at the time) then my surgeon passed away. In August I was told I had to be reassessed to see my pain management Doctor AND wait 18 months. I also have to be assessed before getting another MRI on my back which is much worse than it was 5 years ago. It's even worse since returning from struggling through the hottest Summer in Australia (QLD) and am now struggling with the cold in Canada that creeps through my bones and joints right down to my core so much that my teeth chatter as I shiver with a heating pad in bed (then hello hot flash/power surge/Chinook) and I just want to be pain free.

So much for aging gracefully and since Grace is not my middle name (Clutz was taken?) I will skip the stories about the concussions, osteoarthritis, carpal tunnel etc. and try to be more positive than negative. I will continue to read Sarah Ban Breathnach's "Simple Abundance" daily to find comfort and joy (and gratitude) amidst the pain. I can still do chores. Slowly. Painfully. Now I get 2 days in bed reading. This pity party is over, thanks to the wise words from a few busy friends whom I 'm ever so grateful they had time to listen (read) my venting today, through the tears and whining (no more wining, that solves nothing if not makes thing worse) I was planning on making today a pain killer free day. Oh well, pass the Advil. I've got some reading to catch up on. Have a wonderful Evening and great day tomorrow.  Sunday...a day of rest? I'll do the rest of my chores Monday! CB